2009-02-06
I don't know what it is I want that you're not giving me. I suppose at this point I should be able to recognise that, depressingly, I don't want anything. I just want to want.

I shouldn't inflict myself on people who may expect me to make a valid contribution in the whole give-and-take ordeal.

It doesn't mean I don't have feelings - for you. I just don't actually need you around, or nearby, or at all available, in order to feel them. In fact, I prefer it if you stay away.

The way you make the effort now - while it's meaningful, in many ways - all it does is make it obvious how I don't.

Try, that is.

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As cool as I am, I thought you'd know that already.