It was in the back of my head, growing, developing, for something more than a month, but I never took hold of the thought - the idea - and weighed the good and bad of it. I never do, with these things. They're in my head for a while, and then I decide, and then I attempt to explain the why's and how's of it.

It had nothing to do with you. I don't do self sacrifice, and I don't accomodate (ask anyone who's spent any amount of time with me in recent years) - and I certainly don't do grand gestures.

You'll learn that, eventually.